m yours...

There are days when I want to just look outside…
Tears roll by and I don’t hold them back…
That was just a routine affair till a day back…
But, today…
I want to dance like the peacock in the rain…
Just embracing the little droplets on my face..
And dancing like the peacock, and spreading my colours on the preface...
I want to scream and tell you, I am happy…
As I have seen the slightest of smiles on your face..,
People tell me love fades with time…
But, my love rejuvenates, every time u say u r mine..
Never thought all this happens…
Or its just written in books or told in stories…
It’s true … it’s really true..
All my emotions are subjected to you now…
If you are feeling low, I get miserably low…
And the moment you are happy, I am on the top of the world..
Knowing my words have not made you feel my real feelings..
I had to write…
Because… every moment of my life, u are in my mind “my life”
I know dark clouds also shadow us…
But my silver lining is u surrounding me
“I am there”…
And suddenly I start to the see sun rays sparkling…
I know life is a hustle bustle…
But even the one moment you take out…
Makes me forever smiling…
I might not see you often…
But that one moment of your warmth…
Makes me treasure life, as worth living…
May be I expect too much, or I say too much…
But I really do understand you…
And all I need is you…
Like the moon gets dark in the clouds…
When I will also fade away, as I breathe my last…
All I will say is….
I am crazy, but crazy in love with you…
Crazy about you,
Yours
Paro…

trek.. triumph..terrain...

Trek … triumph… terrain…
Oh… yes it was triumph… over terrain
I am here to describe something which is beyond description…
A journey to the untold jungles…
Everyone has some or the other legendary moments…
And d trek was one of them for me…
A terrain which enfolded adventure, fun, exploration , bonding… and most importantly masti… to d core!!
Was not expecting that it will be something like this..
I thought it will just be a very comfortable trek…
But.. din know something like this was awaiting …
A difficult jungle to conquer specially with delicate darlings like us…
From thorns , wild plants and narrow caves it had just everything to take u in some other land.. which happens only once. We were all apprehensive in climbing on those steep rocks but there was a ‘PINK BANDAR’ who was hopping and sliding his way in between the deep ambush of the rocks’, I think the fun and spirit of the trek comes from him
There were dark and dingy caves, thought will never be able to come out of them. ..
But when u come out, the sense of triumph, achievement is just so extraordinary.
The height from the rocks…. When u look down.. oh… its like that beautiful silence enfolds u, and u feel like staying there forever .. from the hustle bustle of the city..
Its peace, serenity and so close to nature, as if u r engulfed by all his goodness.
The nature’s adventure when you climb, when you explore… and you just don feel like coming back…
And getting lost in that pathway… where you don’t know where is the end.. and u just go on and on.. without even worrying about the destination.. but who wanted to come out..? I just wanted to carry on hoping and jumping on those rocks.. and banging heads with branches of trees… crawling.. sliding like snakes!! OH!MAN… what an experience.. NORMADIC life… CAREFREE BIRDS.. WE WERE..
Just wanted to wander and wander forever..
But it did come to an end and that too with an amazing lunch.. In quotes “cheap lunch”
Now awaiting for the next trek to come….

i wish

Wish I could tell u that I cried….
Wish I could tell u that I yelled….
Wish I could tell u I was excruciated…
With the strings of my heart torn apart…
And with things making us part….
And the lightening stuck….
Broke my dream… I wept…
Then held my self together…from pieces…
Wiped my tears and looked for the new dawn from the ashes….
In search of you, I came towards you ….
But that was not me… was my dismantled self with you…
Did all which was never me…
Said all which never had my essence….
I had gone much far from my own self….
Kept asking my self I want my soul back…
But my questions were never heard…
I say I was alone… alone in myself…
I wanted me... me , I … who wants to love… dream… achieve.. .
My duties… my responsibilities… my aim… I forgot in my path way…
I have always dreamt of making the world know… who I am…
And here I was…. Asking my self “is that me”?
All because I wanted you.... to hold me…
Wipe my tears… and kiss me….
Kiss on my eyes… to see the world…
And making me… “me” again…

THIS IS AN ODE TO MY FRIEND…
TO THE SONG OF MY LIFE… “GEET’

U STAY STRONG… WHEN I JUST LONG….
U JUST UNDERSTAND … WHEN I DON’T EVEN SAY….
U HOLD ME… WHEN EVEN I AM UNAWARE THAT I’LL FALL…
U MAKE ME SMILE.. WHEN I AM NUMB….
U HAVE GIVEN ME LOVE… U HAVE GIVEN ME LIFE… U HAVE GIVEN ME HIM…
U DON’T EVEN EXPRESS JUST MAKE THINGS HAPPEN FOR ME….
I NEVER NEED TO SAY AND U JUST DO IT FOR ME…..
HOW CAN I EXPRESS MY THANKS.. OOPS! MY GRATITUDE TO THE GOD…
AS HE BLESSED ME WITH “ THE SONG OF MY LIFE …. GEET”

EVERYONE INCLUDING ME JUSTS BOASTS… AND U DO THINGS…
WE THROUGH TANTRUMS AND U SILENTLY WORK….
AND WE TAKE CREDITS YOU JUST SMILE….
OH! NOW I WILL JUST STOP.. AS MY TEARS ARE FLOWING…
THANK YOU SO MUCH…..
GOD BLESS!!!
U SMILE AND MAKE MY LIFE BEAUTIFUL…
AND TOUCH WOOD MAKE IT WORTH LIVING!!!

LOVE … PARUL

silence.....

when words don speak .....
silence does...
when eyes don talk....
silence talks...
when heart beats are not heard....
silence listens....
when emotions are ignored...
silence values...

the entire nature is in love with silence....
the beautiful mountains, covering their beauty with snow in love with the sky...
just gaze.. and silence...

the tress feel bliss as the they feel the breeze...
wind passes and leaves fall but in silence....

water flows and travels through miles...
rustling the rocks on the way....
the water flows with a serene silence...

we all love and express it too...'
but what is immortal is the unexpressed silence....
which has volumes of words... yet is the hidden love in silence..........

I lost my diary…..
The diary which had my daily existence notes….
My every day feelings… schedules…fights….tears
My everything... it was a collection of my days chores!
Now its all so empty, where should I write ?
I want the same diary,,,, perhaps???/
When I am happy my diary needs to bear a little less,
As I just used to write what I felt , ecstasy and then ended by thanking the ALMIGHTY!
But, when I am sad, it’s my best place to crib… to pen down my pent up……
Feeling so incomplete without it….
Spl. Today when I had loads to crib….
And cry about…
Wish I find it back!!!!
AND IT HAD MY PART 3 OF ALLAH KA BANDA…AN SEPT 1 ENTRY…….
PRAY I FIND IT BACK…

forever together...

as i am walking along the highs and lows of this overtly busy city.....

i get stopped by sudden stream of thoughts that rush thru my mind and heart...

as the traffic , flats and everything seem to fade in the silent glow of memories ,,,,,

i have finally understood what is friendship...

i have what people say friends..\

from the oceans of strange people i had found a pearl whom i met a year ago....

who has acted as a guidance and his shining light has always hovered on me..

he makes me laugh, makes me smile.. has made me know whats life....

another my star in the sky of many rushes i met this person,,,,

silent, sutle, spirited ...

we were strangers but never felt it so...

now its like a three layered ice cream...

all sweetness and i add the crunchyness ;-)

may be am not able to b the bestest of frnd to u people...

but my deepest corner of heart knows...'

my eyes filled with tears ,.....

my soul still thanking god..

for the blissful foreverness u two have given me...

hold me, wen i fall...

catch my tear, wen i cry...

and remember me, wen i die